:POWEREDBY_ Broken_Puppet:
Fucked up

Oh where to start...

 I cant get all this stupid things out of my head... I just ask myself all the time whats the sense of my life...I mean its always the same every day...it doesnt mean a thing to me...really it doesnt mean anything
I miss him ...I miss him so much

i cant describe what I feel when it comes to this certain person..its just confusing me always the whole time...
It follows me everywhere and I cant make it go away its always on my mind...its like a neverending escape of my feelings...
I hate and love him at same time...

Well if he would notice...I dont think that it would change something cos I know theres no way to make him clear how i feel
and that is the point again what do i feel about him??? Its more than this "I like u thing" u know this kind of feelings which tells: Oh nice guy go and grab him...
theres much more and its all so confusing
I miss him like hell its not that thing that I miss the person he really is..i miss the feelings when i look at him...

I remember when him and me met the first time..i was already dead u know??? It was too hard to face this connection, which appeared after one second...and it grows every time after it..it was almost like: i know there is something but what the hell is there??? Its More than love i dont know if i am able to call it love its more like i need u to feel the hole in my heart...i am searching for the part which could fill my heart with bliss...i think it doesnt really mean that he has to be wirth me...its more like: i hope that u could save my bleeding soul...the soul which sits in the dark and waits for something for an aura or kind like that to feel not alone anymore...

And that hurts me again...will i ever find somebody to fill this emptiness??? and can i expect from somebody that he makes me feel nearly complete????

I dont think that theres a person whom i can please to do that for me...that also means i had to admit that i am vulnerable...and theres still someone who is able to do that is another point...i am so mazed everything is crazy right now...

I am weak and I hate to be like that..I hate to be something like a stone on someones heart...

all i want is to be happy to become a better person and be strong...and there are all these persons, who expect from me always to know whats right and the best...but maybe sometimes its ok to choose something wrong...

to play a wrong game...just to know later what is really right thing to do...

 Well I was there on the day they sold the cause for the queen
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen
I hate the ending myself
But it started with an alright scene

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If i'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after i'm gone?
Because you never learned a god damned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learned a god damned thing

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

So go, go away, just go, run away.
Now where did you run to?
And where did you hide?
Go find another way
Price you pay

Woah oh, Woah oh, Woah oh, Woah oh, Woah oh, Woah oh

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you, come on

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong
This never meant nothing to you

At all
At all
At all
At all

I am a sad song...and i know that i have nothing to say nothing what means something...and when i am so wrong????why does this all mean nothing to me????am i really waiting for a hospitalstay...somebody to repare my soul????

I am so lost...

I am alone

17.11.07 00:33
 


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